“…in the uprightness of mine heart I have willingly offered all these things…” (1 Chronicles 29:17).
The decision to live in this world as we know it today is given to no one. We are born into this world without us wanting it. The main reason for our being is: “That all the people of the earth may know that the LORD is God, and that there is none else.” (1 Kings 8:60).
“And this is eternal life, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.” (John 17:3). Therefore, everybody has two options to freely decide from: To enjoy this world and forever burn in death, or to know God, understand Him, and see that there is no joy in this world, and thus you live eternally.
I choose eternal life. I want to know God, to follow Him, and to be His disciple. And I don’t think I am the only one who has made this decision.
I recently asked myself a question: Do I understand what it means to be a disciple of Christ? In the Bible, it is written that those who do not hate their family and even themselves cannot be His disciples. Harsh words, aren’t they? How can I hate my mother or father? Furthermore, in a parable Jesus talks about someone who counts his costs because he wants to build a tower and wants to finish it successfully. The next parable is about a king who compares his army with the enemy’s army so that he may stop the war in time to make peace, so it doesn’t turn out that his army is too small to win the war. Eventually Jesus says: “So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.”
(Luke 14:33).What does the tower construction and the king have in common with verse 33? Neither one of them had to give up their possessions. But both had to be aware of the situation before they could act accordingly in order not to fail. To become a disciple of Christ, you have to reject everything.
And then comes the next question: Am I ready to do so? Am I ready to lose my life in this world? And am I ready to leave slavery and become a righteous servant? Am I ready to eat the only one bread? Because it is written: “This is that bread which came down from heaven: not as your fathers did eat manna, and are dead: he that eateth of this bread shall live for ever” (John 6:58). Can I afford the “costs” and abandon myself, and without any doubt walk this way through the desert until the very end? From all of the Israelites that were led out of Egypt only two of them were able to do so. Why? Because the others could not believe. Only those who have faith will have eternal life. Only the one who has money will finish his tower and only the one who has enough men in his legion will come home victoriously. Am I ready to reject everything? Do I have this Faith?
Now it is clear to me how I can become a disciple of Christ, and how I can go from death into life. Since everything except Christ’s Spirit is death. I realized that I have to hate and understand what I hate, which is the spirit of this world (1 John 2:16). Therefore, I need to hate myself, because I was just like this world, I was a part of it and it had a part of me.
The last question: Why should I hold onto something that is temporary? Today you were successful, received praise for your work and people honored you, but tomorrow people will mock you, either directly to your face or behind your back. My mind is null and void and it is not worthy to protect. Right, it makes no sense to hold onto something that is temporary. “…Our days on the earth are as a shadow, and there is none abiding…in the uprightness of mine heart I have willingly offered all these things…” (1 Chronicles 29:15, 17). I am ready to give up everything freely, through the faith in death for this world with Jesus Christ. The Lord Himself has opened my eyes, and I changed my faith, that is why I already went from my world to our Creator’s world.
With that I testify that I became a disciple of Christ.